No Pain - No Gain

Update

Mon, 21 Sep 2009 11:54:08 GMT

I want to do an update, too nihahaha

As you may have heard I lost my great and favourite job. But I somehow got over it, and so I get the chance to work on approval at "die rote Bar" which is a high class cocktail bar. I was good. Everything I heard was good, great, excellent. Three hours before the bar closed my boss already told me, she would take me in. I wished she wouldn't have said this. I know I am good at working in the service section, but the location is somehow pissing me off. Everything must be perfect. There the ashtrays must be changed almost every five minutes, because there can't be more then three cigarettes in it. And every candle must be enlightend. And so on. Anyhow the boss gave me the permission to think a while about it. She also said I could try to work behind the bar if I don't like the service. No, I am not happy about it. I will think a little more about it.

That's not all that happened. We are currently organizing the next Bildungsstreik!!!! YEAHHHHH!!!!! This is always the best demonstration. Muhahahaha. I am so happy to help in this. I hate our fucking educationsystem. I don't want to pay to be allowed to study. Education makes us able to change something, to have better chances to get a better job. And it is totally unfair that in germany not everyone has the same opportunities to go study. So the only thing to do is fighting for more. I hope the next bildungstreik will be as successful as the two before.
On Friday we had a "Meating" discussing on how we organize this whole thing. It is so wonderful to see so many different left groups who work together for the same Purpose. In the moment we think about which building we want to seize. My favourite sure is my university XDD
Let's see what happens. But here is the date for everyone who lives in Germany and wants to fight with ous: 16.11 - 22.11.2009

Oh and befor I forget. Next week the university will start again, on octobre 1st. There will be many new Freshmen (Erstsemester). We want them to have a good start becuase of this we organize seminars conducted by postgraduates. I am responsible for the "Cafete". So that the freshmens have time to chill out, because of the load of informations they get.
The biggest Problem I have in the moment is that I have to buy café but don't have someone with a car who can bring the café from the store to the university. That's a little bit ätzend (something like really worse). And be sure my "Friends" won't help me. But I still have a week to go. Somehow it will work out.

Apart from that my life is still at ease. I am watching droamas and star wars and such things. Ahh last week I visited with friends the poetry slam. Great thing everyone should go there. It's so much fun. After that we went to a club called stereo and had also a lot of fun. I had a good talk with carina, and I think we can get close like before, which ist totally great because it was all my fault that our friendship got a huge crash. But I am working on it.

Oh and yesterday my mum visited me in Nuremberg. This was so great. I was really afraid she would say my flat is too dirty or something. But it was really wonderful. And she said she will visit mor often. I really love my mum. She may have some mistakes but all my ethical and moral opinions are from her, and she raised me to a person who fights for others and won't shut up her mouth for unrightenousness. And furthermore she is really wise and she always knows an answer for everything. And not like: "I like this guy what should I do?" but rather like : "Why is it that our democrazy doesn't work anymore?" I think since I was a small child I always asked such quesitons: why is there war? How can people be mean to others? Why wasn't it allowed in the middle ages to belive in whatever religion? Why was there Hitler who killed so many people and why did no one say someting against it? And I always get answers and they were not like it just was like this, but always something I could think about. XDDD Somehow this describes my relationship with my mother. I really learned from her. She always pushed me to be independently. Cooking my own food, cleaning my clothes, going from A to B on my own. And I am now really happy about it. I know I can do everything on my own. It doesn't matter what will happen, I can get through it. And that's all thanks to my mum.
^__________________________________^

The album review of -Oz-'s album versus will come soon. Normally I don't write reviews but somehow some things on this album are pissing me off so I have to write them

Ha HA

Sun, 13 Sep 2009 03:05:57 GMT

you want to hear something funny? One hour ago I lost my job. I got fired.

You want to know why? I went home with a friend of one of my collegues, who visited my workplace yester day as a guest.

That's all.

I really lost my job.

Thursday, 03.08.2006

Sun, 02 Aug 2009 22:06:08 GMT

In everlasting memory

LILITH

I love you

Animagic Part 1

Fri, 31 Jul 2009 23:57:02 GMT

hey hey

I don't know if I told you yet, but I love my mobile phone and the opportunity to go online where ever I am. Nihahaha <3

The first day is over and I am nearly falling into my bed. The day started hellish but changed like I wanted it. I got really really drunk (funny thing, I think I got on rei's nerves) but that was the only way to survive entrenchend habits of some people. But after I succeed with alcohol the evening got funnier and funnier. At last we made a party in kitanai's room. It was so funny. I laughed so hard and much. The best thing I got my hair cut. One of kitanai's friends is a hairdresser and she was in a rush yet from cutting other peoples hair so I got my haircut, too. Great thing.

Muhahaha

Wait for new updates tomorrow.

I love you all, and wait for pics

Wooohoooooooooooooooo!

Fri, 31 Jul 2009 05:48:32 GMT

I weighed myself today and guess what. I am 167m tall and have a weight from

55 kg

I wasn't that thin since I was 15 years old. Sadly it took two despairs ray concerts to get this weight XDDDD

I am sorry, I am just a little bit happy about it so I have to spam you lol
er and always remember in december I weighed 64 kg. I worked on it muhahahha

"Geht doch alle sterben"

Sat, 25 Jul 2009 15:23:21 GMT

Das waren die Worte (und noch viel schlimmere) die mir gestern im Kopf rumgespuckt sind als ich ehrenamtlich auf der format c: (der party unserer fachschaft von der FH) Cocktails mixte für wahrscheinlich um die 1200 Leute. Mal abgesehen das ich am Mittwoch den Tag über mit den ganzen Alkohl mit eingekauft habe, genauso wie am Donnerstag und dann am Freitag die ganze Zeit ab 14h mit aufgebaut habe, Tische rumgeschleppt habe, Folien an die Wände klebte und ähnliche spaßige und widerliche Dinge, war die Zeit hinter der Cocktailbar doch wirklich am aller, aller schlimmsten. So nahezu die wirklich erlebte Hölle. Ab 21h bis 02h stand ich da unten mit 4 anderen Leuten und es hat nichts geklappt wie es klappen sollte. Andauernd ging uns was aus, Leute die sich eingetragen hatten für eine Schicht erschienen nicht, etc. ich hab noch nie so viel geschwitzt beim cocktail mixen, bzw. eigentlich hab ich gar nicht mehr gemixt, nur noch versucht zu schütten. Aber die Leute wurden nicht weniger, wenn dann immer immer mehr. Sehr depremierende Sache also. Am Ende der Party (ja es gab wirklich ein Ende, ich hatte es nicht zu hoffen gewagt) war die Bar einfach nur eine einzige versiefte Landschaft, mit Tausenden von leeren Flaschen. Glücklicherweise wurde es dann nach und nach weniger und wir haben es wirklich geschafft, und um 8h morgens lag ich glücklich in meinem Bett

Es war einfach nur furchtbar. Das nächste Mal müssen wir das anders organisieren, weil sonst dreh ich durch.
Und das schlimmste grad ist das ich mir so in den Zeigefinger geschnitten habe, als ich die Limetten zerkleinerte das mir das Tippen echt weh tut.

Heute abend darf ich wieder arbeiten, aber da weiß ich dann wenigstens, das die Bedingungen gut sind und ich Geld dabei verdiene.

Sorry, this entry is in german, I wouldn't have been able to describe the hell in english.

hmmm.....

Wed, 22 Jul 2009 20:11:18 GMT

ich sollte anfangen meine einträge dann zu verfassen, wenn ich wach bin, so denkt man sonst, ich wäre in der 9. Klasse Realschule und könnte kein englisch.... wirklich depremierend XD

My 4th d'espairs ray concert ROCKED!!! - Like hell!!!

Wed, 22 Jul 2009 19:09:44 GMT

So great, I love the guys, really from the bottom of my heart. They are so special and great live.

To describe the concert in short words: Loud! Hard! Hot!

But compared to the other concerts before the concert hall was too small, and also the stage. Also the accoustic failed a little BUT the best securitys I've ever seen. They gave out a lot really A LOT of water for the front rows. I have never seen something like this. That securitys care so much about their guest and try to pretend bad situations, like a lot of girls who faint out.

I rocked the best I could but you know, the day before the concert I shattered my nose and had the first time in my life nosebleed. And after the first song was over the security looked at me and told my my nose would bleed again, because of this, I tried to hold myself back a little bit because I didn't want to faint or something like this.

I am not disappointed because of this becuase I have a second chance: BERLIN! BERLIN! Wir fahren nach BERLIN!
XDDD

natürlich wieder verwackelt XD aber macht mal auf einem konzert mit dem handy gute bilder >.>

totally hot <3

I made the pictures after I got back from the front rows because it was too hot and exausting. Not beeing in the first row does not make so much fun ^^°

sorry for spamming all the non-despas fans <3

As I promised...

Sat, 11 Jul 2009 17:08:50 GMT

.... I made a better one

look look

isn't he sweet

Amigurumi addicted

Fri, 10 Jul 2009 11:10:32 GMT

The exams are over and what am I doing?

Right crocheting, and it's totally fun XD Yesterday I stayed up till five o'clock a.m. to finisch my first amigurumi. It looked a lil' bit psyched becaus I hadn't black pearls for the eyes. but I somehow really like it XD

the next one will be more elegant

Impressions from Rock im Park 2009

Tue, 09 Jun 2009 10:46:24 GMT

the pictures I made in rock im park

The center stage / Machine head

My sister and her boyfriend (jan) (in ihren Ganz-Körper-Kondomen

.

Slipknot I know you can't see much, but there were screens on the stage beside the stage there were also screens, on the left site you can see one of them

This was Block Party. And before the concert it was really raining like hell, so because of this the singer came on stage with an orange rain poncho

Club stage

A day to remember

pretty bad picture of Dir en grey

and another bad picture of Dir en Grey (unfortunatly all my pictures of Diru were bad)

an one more band what I've seen on the club stage, can't remember the name

And a short scene from hollywood undead

I am sorry for the bad pic. Normally may mobile phone cam is pretty good, but this weekend, all pictures were jitteried

And I am sorry, my lj-cut didn't work, I will repair it tomorrow ^.~

Can't move my head x_X

Sat, 06 Jun 2009 12:53:01 GMT

Friday, First day of Rock im Park.
Dir en grey played at 01:20 am before that were many cool bands like: The All-American Rejects, Guano Apes (unfortnatly they didn't rock the crowed, bad setlist), Bring me the Horizon, Hollywood undead aaaand then Dir en grey. These were just the good ones.

Diru was great, and killed my head, fucking uroborus album, to much riffs XDDDD
today will be great to but I will miss placebo, marilyn manson, korn so saaaaad, I have to work tonight T.T

muahhaha let's go rock

S.O.S.

Wed, 13 May 2009 08:00:41 GMT

I am dead and overworked. Since two weeks I rotate to organise so much for the demo (which is today) for the cafete (cheap coffee for students at my university of applied science) for friends and work. I want to study but I don't have enough time. Most of the time I feel like I was dismissed by my friends, don't know if this could be true but it feels like this and when it is true they don't talk often with me which is only getting more and more on my nerves. And often I am just angry because of minor things of things that don't concern me.

You see, I need holiday

fast!

I hope that after today my time will slow down. And I really pray that today enough people will come (a must are 1000 students) to know that our effort was not useless and the work was worth it.

By the way today is the SOS - Demo everywhere in Bavaria means Study without tuition fees (studieren ohne Studiengebühren) If you live in Bavaria and you are a study or you want to study GO THERE and demonstrate

So much for today

meme AGAIN!!!

Sat, 28 Mar 2009 20:23:36 GMT

RULES:
1. Write your LJ username.
2. Write your two favorite bands/groups at the moment (not overall, just currently).
3. Write I ♥ ___ (this isn't really for anything, just to see how you draw hearts!)
4. Write the name of your favorite person of all time.
5. Write down your recently favored person.
6. Tag 5 people to do this meme.

I was so diligent today :3

Mon, 16 Mar 2009 03:09:39 GMT

I sewed me a new pencil case. And if you watch closley you can see the pearls which are between two different fabrics
It's note completly ready yet, but I am totally proud muhahaha

because I feel bored

Sun, 15 Mar 2009 01:37:51 GMT

TRACK 1:
Infection
DAMNED
Lizard

TRACK 2:
Dears
TRICKSTeR
BRILLIANT

TRACK 3:
in vain
MIRROR
REDEEMER

TRACK 4:
GRUDGE
SIXty∞NINe
Kohaku

TRACK 5:
Tsuki no kioku - fallen -
Kogoeru yoru ni saita hana
KAMIKAZE

TRACK 6:
hai to ame
SCREEN
Lost in re:birth

TRACK 7:
Abel to Kain
Lost Scene
R.E.M. Fuyuu no genchou

TRACK 8:
Tainted World
Hollow
Horizon

TRACK 9:
"Forbidden"
Closer to ideal
Masquerade

TRACK 10:
[The world in a cage]
Angeldust
Yozora

TRACK 11:
Born -white stream mix-
Squall
PARADOX 5

TRACK 12:
Marry of the blood -bloody minded mix-
Kaleidoscope
Heavens Color

COLL:SET= 7
MIRROR= 5
REDEEMER= 6

huhu I am surprised XD buuut that's because 1. Redeemer is new (who knows if my choices will be the same in half a year) and 2. I don't count the published singles to the album

Redeemer

Sun, 08 Mar 2009 16:53:03 GMT

3 days left...

and I swear:
On tuesday I will not go to livejournal.com and download the album
I will wait in anticipation until I get my own copy

dammit! got tagged

Sun, 08 Mar 2009 16:36:10 GMT

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blog and replace any question that they dislike with a new, original question.

B) Tag eight people. Don't refuse to do that. Don't tag who tagged you.

1. Make a list of 5 things you can see without getting up:
my notebook
a photo of carina, matthias and me
my cortison creme
my tobacco
my keinohrhasen XD

2. What is the last movie you watched?
"der vorleser"

3. What are you wearing now?
chill clothes

4. What's your occupation?
student

5. The best thing to happen to you as of late?
I got the the new -OZ- single (coming home from work at night and then getting your favourite music is always the best)

6. What animal you think would describe yourself the best?
a dog (that's bitter I know but true) XD

7. What's your current fandom/obsession/addiction?
D'espairs ray

8. What was the last thing you ate today?
a mango

9. What would your perfect day consist of doing?
flying to japan with my beloved day and laughing the whole day by heart and after that going on a D'espairs ray concert

10. What websites do you always visit when you go online?
Livejournal.com

11. What was the last thing you bought?
a metro ticket

12. What are you listening to right now?
-Oz- Venom

13. What do you think about before you go to bed at night?
ohhh...this audiobook is quite exciting

14. What was the last cd you bought?
D'espairs ray redeemer ^____________^ and I am waiting in anticipation

15. What is your favorite weather, and why?
continuing weeks of rain in spring... this feels so melancolic, luv~ it

16. What is the last book you read?
Dostojewski - the Idiot

17. If you would be sent to a deserted island, then what are the 3 things you'd take along?
my notebook (where my music is on), my mobile phone and books

18. What's something you'd like to say to someone right now?
I really hate you, so many things in my life got destroyed by you and you don't care at all, never said once I am sorry and never tried to change yourself. I hope there will come other people who can make this clear to you

19. What's one of your favorite movies?
Pride and prejudice

I tag

youneko
erinnyen
p_chanxxx
kaju
quishot
zipp_chan

I don't know more people XDD sorry ~~and I believe none of them will do this meme~~

Coming Back

Fri, 06 Mar 2009 16:18:41 GMT

This is not home
This is is Hell

@.@ ... ^. ^ .... >.< .... T.T ..... ^_________________^

Mon, 23 Feb 2009 15:57:41 GMT

I am high, despas is still the best drug

welcome back, I can feel your soul again so Thank you that you share this with me <3

I can't stop crying while I'm smiling, I feel so fangirlish XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

zerow wir müssen cosplayern, ich mag solche klamotten mit augenbinde *.*

Sat, 21 Feb 2009 23:31:11 GMT

1. Grab the nearest book.
2. Open the book to page 55.
3. Find the fifth sentence.
4. Post the text of the next seven sentences in your journal along with these instructions.
5. Don't dig for your favourite book, the cool book, or the intellectual one: pick the CLOSEST.
6. Tag five other people to do the same.

Das Pferd schwang herum, und unter ihnen raste die weite schachbrettartig gemusterte Landschaft der Sto-Ebene dahin - ein fruchtbares Land mit vielen Kohlfeldern und kleinen übersichtilichen Königreichen. Kurze Kriege, Ehebündnisse, komplizierte Pakt-Politik und manchmal recht unaufmerksame und nachlässige Kartenzeichner sorgten dafür, dass die Grenzen ständig in Bewegung blieben.
"Dieser König", fragte Mort, als ein Wald unter ihnen hinwegsauste. "Ist er gut oder böse?"
DIE CHARAKTERLICHEN EIGENSCHAFTEN MEINER KUNDEN GEHEN MICH NICHTS AN, erwiederte Tod. ICH VERMUTE, ER IST NICHT BESSER ODER SCHLECHTER ALS ANDERE KÖNIGE.
"Verurteilt er Leute zum Tode?" fragte Mort und erinnerte sich plötzlich daran, wer vor ihm saß. "Womit ich dir keineswegs zu nahe treten will."
MANCHMAL. KÖNIGE SIND ZU GEWISSEN DINGEN GEZWUNGEN, WEISST DU.

Terry Pratchett - Gevatter Tod
Terry Pratchett - Mort (english)

erinnyen , p_chanxxx , zipp_chan , youneko , quishot

By the way...

Sun, 08 Feb 2009 23:44:56 GMT

I've now ICQ feel free to add me: 446817637

MSN is still the same: sagi_fushin@gmx.de

And I am currently visiting my family in augsburg, if someone wants to take my time -> tell me <3

and now I am wishing you all a good night

proclamation of war

Sat, 24 Jan 2009 06:44:16 GMT

Status progress:

40% done

2 battles fought
1 battle won

3 battles remaining

time left till the next: 1 hour

FIGHT!!!!

Too funny XDDD

Tue, 06 Jan 2009 18:28:59 GMT

I am currently listening to -Oz- new song: Raze

And now for every german please listen to the song and tell me what he sings within the first 5 sec.

I loooled my ass off XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDd

Check it out

My first christmas present .

Thu, 18 Dec 2008 23:08:18 GMT

I got this one week ago but couldnt upload it because I couldn't find my camcable
so here it is

THANK YOU SO MUCH CHOUCHOU *love*

the cookies were delicious

and since I am already uploading pictures I will spam you some more

this is carina, matthias and me. This was a really funny evening, we met to learn but it wasn't really productive XD

XD you see?

this was three hours ago. Maria had a role in a play and we were visiting it, the girl in the middle, is frani, Maria's girlfriend

the right girl is maria
and because they are so cute another one

and a beautiful picture from my family, nice isn't it? (Did you see my new haircut?)

I am loving it

Hope you enjoyed it
have fun
san