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fuyushita_risou
16 June 2011 @ 12:40 am
I can't erase... that's why I... floating away...
Just thinking of the scene makes me sick...
eat away... decay... before it's your Falldown...

The incomplete moon and almost-dead sun are quite like a mirage
Shattered reason engulfs you sweetlyembraced by the voices that have fallen into ruin
"do I dream...?" rose up from you to the sky
The loosened fallen ideal and rusted reality
pass each other by with a faded fragrance

Even you were consumed by the lost, grieving darkness
Like the swaying moon by the clouds

It's tears of blood begin to seep... worry... your hurt... many promise broken
It's tears of blood begin to seep... dirty... suffer... before it's your Falldown...

hating... falling... I am withstanding now...

Just thinking of the scene makes me sick... liar... betray... keep from falling...
Just thinking of the scene makes me sick... eat away... decay... before it's your Falldown...

The desire that was coiled around you seems like it will be torn asunder, I can't describe it but by despair...
There surely must be deceptionless thoughts in these hands... if they left me, I cannot search for them...
Even in the encroaching violations, my wishes will not become extinct...
believe me... stay with me... hug Falldown...

I go away from the sun... I'm falling... dirty... worry... How deep I descend?
screaming... be tired... so long... with darkness so long... I lose light...
 
 
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fuyushita_risou
27 January 2011 @ 02:18 am
And...

you...

break....

Into          thousand          small          sparkeling          splinters of glass
falling like flower petals
gleaming in the cold light
lying bare
a horrorful noise echoes as someone tramples on the fragments
your precious heart
your precious soul
your precious memories

In this one moment         the world stops          and time stands still
you hold your breath         welcoming the outragous hell
as pain, sorrow and grief poison your body
running through your veins, ridiculing your thoughts

"Are you hurt?"
"Are you miserable?"

Your          clear          sad          silent          teardrops
falling like flower petals
gleaming in the moonlight
dissolving into nothingness

Your GODS embrace you gently, thus
KARMA awaits you
 
 
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fuyushita_risou
21 September 2009 @ 12:35 pm
I want to do an update, too nihahaha

Work )

Bildungstreik )

Freshmen )

Everything else )


The album review of -Oz-'s album versus will come soon. Normally I don't write reviews but somehow some things on this album are pissing me off so I have to write them
 
 
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fuyushita_risou
13 September 2009 @ 05:02 am
you want to hear something funny? One hour ago I lost my job. I got fired.

You want to know why? I went home with a friend of one of my collegues, who visited my workplace yester day as a guest.

That's all.

I really lost my job.
 
 
Current Mood: broken
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fuyushita_risou
03 August 2009 @ 12:03 am
In everlasting memory

LILITH


I love you

 
 
Current Mood: sadsad
Current Music: silence of my room
 
 
fuyushita_risou
01 August 2009 @ 01:42 am
hey hey

I don't know if I told you yet, but I love my mobile phone and the opportunity to go online where ever I am. Nihahaha <3

The first day is over and I am nearly falling into my bed. The day started hellish but changed like I wanted it. I got really really drunk (funny thing, I think I got on rei's nerves) but that was the only way to survive entrenchend habits of some people. But after I succeed with alcohol the evening got funnier and funnier. At last we made a party in kitanai's room. It was so funny. I laughed so hard and much. The best thing I got my hair cut. One of kitanai's friends is a hairdresser and she was in a rush yet from cutting other peoples hair so I got my haircut, too. Great thing. 

Muhahaha

Wait for new updates tomorrow.

I love you all, and wait for pics
 
 
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Current Mood: drunkdrunk
Current Music: Disturbed - Down with the sickness
 
 
fuyushita_risou
31 July 2009 @ 07:42 am
I weighed myself today and guess what. I am 167m tall and have a weight from

55 kg

I wasn't that thin since I was 15 years old. Sadly it took two despairs ray concerts to get this weight XDDDD

I am sorry, I am just a little bit happy about it so I have to spam you lol
er and always remember in december I weighed 64 kg. I worked on it muhahahha
 

 
 
Current Mood: amusedamused
Current Music: the silence of my room
 
 
fuyushita_risou
25 July 2009 @ 04:21 pm
Das waren die Worte (und noch viel schlimmere) die mir gestern im Kopf rumgespuckt sind als ich ehrenamtlich auf der format c: (der party unserer fachschaft von der FH) Cocktails mixte für wahrscheinlich um die 1200 Leute. Mal abgesehen das ich am Mittwoch den Tag über mit den ganzen Alkohl mit eingekauft habe, genauso wie am Donnerstag und dann am Freitag die ganze Zeit ab 14h mit aufgebaut habe, Tische rumgeschleppt habe, Folien an die Wände klebte und ähnliche spaßige und widerliche Dinge, war die Zeit hinter der Cocktailbar doch wirklich am aller, aller schlimmsten. So nahezu die wirklich erlebte Hölle. Ab 21h bis 02h stand ich da unten mit 4 anderen Leuten und es hat nichts geklappt wie es klappen sollte. Andauernd ging uns was aus, Leute die sich eingetragen hatten für eine Schicht erschienen nicht, etc. ich hab noch nie so viel geschwitzt beim cocktail mixen, bzw. eigentlich hab ich gar nicht mehr gemixt, nur noch versucht zu schütten. Aber die Leute wurden nicht weniger, wenn dann immer immer mehr. Sehr depremierende Sache also. Am Ende der Party (ja es gab wirklich ein Ende, ich hatte es nicht zu hoffen gewagt) war die Bar einfach nur eine einzige versiefte Landschaft, mit Tausenden von leeren Flaschen. Glücklicherweise wurde es dann nach und nach weniger und wir haben es wirklich geschafft, und um 8h morgens lag ich glücklich in meinem Bett

Es war einfach nur furchtbar. Das nächste Mal müssen wir das anders organisieren, weil sonst dreh ich durch.
Und das schlimmste grad ist das ich mir so in den Zeigefinger geschnitten habe, als ich die Limetten zerkleinerte das mir das Tippen echt weh tut.

Heute abend darf ich wieder arbeiten, aber da weiß ich dann wenigstens, das die Bedingungen gut sind und ich Geld dabei verdiene.

Sorry, this entry is in german, I wouldn't have been able to describe the hell in english.

 
 
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fuyushita_risou
22 July 2009 @ 10:09 pm
ich sollte anfangen meine einträge dann zu verfassen, wenn ich wach bin, so denkt man sonst, ich wäre in der 9. Klasse Realschule und könnte kein englisch.... wirklich depremierend XD
 
 
Current Mood: amusedamused
Current Music: the silence of my room
 
 
fuyushita_risou
So great, I love the guys, really from the bottom of my heart. They are so special and great live.

To describe the concert in short words: Loud! Hard! Hot!

But compared to the other concerts before the concert hall was too small, and also the stage. Also the accoustic failed a little BUT the best securitys I've ever seen. They gave out a lot really A LOT of water for the front rows. I have never seen something like this. That securitys care so much about their guest and try to pretend bad situations, like a lot of girls who faint out.

I rocked the best I could but you know, the day before the concert I shattered my nose and had the first time in my life nosebleed. And after the first song was over the security looked at me and told my my nose would bleed again, because of this, I tried to hold myself back a little bit because I didn't want to faint or something like this.

I am not disappointed because of this becuase I have a second chance: BERLIN! BERLIN! Wir fahren nach BERLIN!
XDDD

 

natürlich wieder verwackelt XD aber macht mal auf einem konzert mit dem handy gute bilder >.>



totally hot <3

I made the pictures after I got back from the front rows because it was too hot and exausting. Not beeing in the first row does not make so much fun ^^°

sorry for spamming all the non-despas fans <3


 
 
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